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confessionalyou think that i don't trust you.confessional
maybe our definitions of trust are different
but the answer to this problem is the fact that i have shivers running through my veins and a lack of understanding in my brain.
i trust you.
i trust you to let me crash when i fall because people learn from their mistakes.
i trust you to rip my ribcage apart to make room for a fat new heart that pumps confidence instead of shivers.
i trust you to tear away my skin to get rid of the scritchy scratchy badness that crawls, then sew me back together with candyfloss.
by ~starship-daydream
somewhat shakingi've done it again.somewhat shaking
this entire business has consumed me until my lips cracked and my fingers bled. here are lies and confusion. here are misunderstandings. here are tears during church and the realization that if i try, i will hurt people. if i don't try, i will hurt people. i will hurt people. i will hurt people. i will hurt people more than i will ever hurt myself.
there is no way around it.
if i can't take care of myself, there is no way for me to take care of other people. if i can't take care of myself, what will i do when there's no one left?
i've done it again.
so maybe
by ~starship-daydream
falling stardormant I lie in the company of stars.falling star
flesh of dust and blood of ice are outshone by swirling fire.
andromeda has no warmth for me.
shivering. shivering. shivering.
orion has no warmth for me.
shivering shivering shivering.
ursus, mightiest of all, no warmth, no warmth.
shiveringshiveringshivering.
my mirror images leave destruction in their wake
the lunar seas, the storms on jupiter, the clouds on mars.
i watch
think
fall.
dust sheds ice melts flesh shrinks.shrinks.shrinks b
by ~starship-daydream
once upon a timeonce upon a time, in the future you decide i don't love you. corner me hug me tell me you care interpret everything i do as a 'cry for help.'once upon a time
i close my eyes and wish that i could crawl into a hole.
in the middle of the story everything falls apart. because it's not supposed to be like this, because this wasn't supposed to happen, because you're supposed to know i love you. even if i AM an impulsive and smiling liar.
i don't want it to be like this.
(everyone always leaves)
by ~starship-daydream
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she's the kind of girl who only eats meat to find the wish bone'
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it snows only once in our dreams.
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I think you're a boy with eyes like wishing wells that never come true.
When it's almost a heartbeat away from silence she curls up in closets and the lack of oxygen makes her feel like she can fly.
Amazing gallery!
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i'm not afraid to die. but i'm afraid to dry./
"Je ne suis pas d’accord avec ce que vous dites, mais je me
battrai jusqu’? la mort pour que vous ayez le droit de le dire"
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Puts her mask on and walks out the door; curtains cover her tears, a shell embodies her soul.
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that's as bad as secondhand suicide
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* Is that all there is? *
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